Forget the Fear

Four days in and I’ve hit the barrier. Fourth post and I have nothing. Nothing at all. Well, it wouldn’t be called a challenge if it was easy (it also wouldn’t be worthwhile either!). However, this is definitely an improvement on yesterday’s last minute (literally!) post.

From this blogging challenge, I have been listening to the “voice” in my head at length. The opportunity to de-clutter the constant stream of thoughts every day then consolidate them on digital paper as been very satisfying. Calming even. It has given me the space to connect with “Big-picture” goals, dreams and explore my creativity.

Back when I studying an Advanced Diploma of Photography, I was completely enveloped in the creative world, surrounded by passionate students and utterly consumed by personal creative projects.

After graduating, starting to work solo in my photography business, I quickly became disheartend. Working seven-plus hours a day, getting a trickle income, and not talking to “inspiring students” on a daily basis became very lonely. So naturally, my beautifully cultivated and passionate flame quickly turned to smoke.

I’d justified to myself that I needed to work with a team of people, so I’m not lonely. I needed a boss-like figure to instruct me so I don’t feel lost. These, on a base level, are probably quite acurate. Reflecting on it now, I honestly know I gave up. It all become too much and nothing was growing at the rate I wanted it to. I chose to recieve that fear as failure rather than trust my own abilities and give the business my patience.

Strange how the fear of failure itself can cause us to quit on our dreams and leave passions behind. Fail before you even fail…

I forgot how much I missed my passions. In fact, I forgot how creative I am when inspired about an idea. Now that I’ve reconnected with that passion, I’m not letting it go. (Set the intention!)

Diving head first in to my own personal branding, uploading my portfolio, connecting with friends in the creative industry as been exhilarting! Now with a few more years of life and industry experience behind me, I’ve the confidence to put the time, effort and patience into this business and give this a real go.

Thank you Day 4 for the revelations!

 

 

Minimal Cleaning

Today I’ve come prepared to the blog. Tea, brewed. Heater, on. Warm woolly scarf, check. Though I do feel I’m still discovering my intention behind my daily writing and blogging. I know one this though. My content must be organic and true to my values.

Not “is that GMO as pesticide-free?” organic (though yes, I do only eat organic, expect a long Organic food only post) but as transparent, holistic, all-encompassing, filter-free as possible. The last thing that an already over-stimulated worldwide web needs are “rose-coloured” fluffy feeds of yet another perfectly crafted designer blog. Boring. And personally, a huge turn-off.

It is nice seeing people waking up from this commercially fabricated dream and realising “hmm, maybe I’ve been tricked… Maybe I don’t have to slave away in a 20-something-storey building under sickly green fluorescent lighting for a huge hundred thousand plus loan I can barely afford with all the trimmings. What trimmings are these? What material possessions and digital gizmos define me as an individual? Can I even justify all these possessions that I simply had to have?”

Really? “Had to have”? I hear these three words more often than “I love you” which honestly, gives me goosebumps. (Excuse me while I rub my arm…)

However,  I see more people making the switch from the 9-5 to living a life of value and purpose with a little bit of work here and there. That’s a lifestyle I can certainly appreciate.

The concept of creating a lifestyle template that is your own and suites the life you want to live is so inspiring! We are even moving past the phrase and stigma of an “alternative lifestyle”.

It is certainly a lifestyle I have been practising recently. Cleaning out my wardrobe and donating five rubbish bags of clothes, shoes and accessories. Giving old USBs, cables and hard drives to friends who can’t afford them. Becoming less active in friendships that drain me and don’t inspire me or help me grow…

I used to think that I “needed” a walk-in-wardrobe because my two and a half meter built in wardrobe was “too small” to fit my clothes (Sound familiar?). Now all of my draws are two-thirds empty, I love wearing all the clothes I own and I am enjoying the company of people who appreciate me.

After my writing challenge, I think I’ll be trying the Minimalist’s 30-Day Minimalism Game [ http://www.theminimalists.com/game/ ]. Even after my massive decluttering. I am only just four months into my new Minimalist lifestyle and I’m curious to see how far I can push this (and who I can take with me!).